People ask me why I named my blog "Lavendar Lane". Well, on the night that I started this, I had just put on lotion with a hint of lavendar fragrance to it. Lavendar has a healing, calming and peaceful quality to it. The scent of it is pleasurable and whenever I smell it, it just brings peace and a calm reassurance to my soul. On that night, it was late and everyone in my household was asleep and I had the scent of lavendar wafting into my nostrils. However, there are many times in my life where things are the exact opposite. It is loud, chaotic and the scent of poop fills my nostrils. Hence the name, Tales from Lavendar Lane. Sometimes it is 'lavendary' sometimes I want it to be.
Now is one of those peaceful times. Have you ever just stood over the bed of a sleeping baby, staring at that precious life? Have you ever cried as you did that? I walked into my son's room and just stared at him. He is so precious. He fills up his toddler bed so much that I can't believe he is only two! Then I walked into the room of my baby girl and just stared at her. How is it that I am blessed to be the mother of these two lives? If only God knew what crazy days I have had in the past. If only He knew how irresponsible I have been, He wouldn't have given me these gifts. But yes, He knows all about me. He knows my past and He was right there when I was in the midst of making some very poor choices. Yes, He was there and still He gave me the privilege of being a mother to some very precious people. I hope I don't mess up. Wait... too late on that one. I have messed up in the mothering department and I think it is safe to say that I will make a few more mistakes in the future. God is good, because as I stare at my sleeping children, it seems to me that they are perfect, so something went right. Not me though. it is the nearness of God that is my good. The nearness of God in me has done good to my children.
The next time you go check on sleeping babies, take a few minutes just to stare at them. But remember to take a Kleenex.